I’m about to get real REAL here.  Kids are hard.  Yes, being a parent is the absolute BEST thing in the entire world and I thank my sweet Father in Heaven for my children every single day, BUT it’s still hard. So painfully hard. You never know how much you could possibly love something until you have that little baby in your arms, and I have done everything in my power to make my children’s lives as best as I possibly can.  Having said that, I have been a little umm… controlling… (maybe a lot of controlling) when it comes to protecting them and keeping them on the perfect schedule, controlling what they eat, what they play with, what they see on TV, what friends they play with, etc. etc. etc.  It’s starting to wear on me, you guys! Time to get even REAL[ER]: my marriage is quickly falling apart. Trying to control my husband, who is a fully capable adult, and treating him like a baby is not gonna work for our relationship. And it shouldn’t. I need to put myself on a time-out. A nice, long, relaxing time-out that takes place across the world 😉

SO, I’m doing it.  I’m forcing myself to let go and get some quality time with my husband. For the obvious reasons that I stated above, we have decided to refund our son’s ticket and leave him with Grandma and Grandpa while mom and dad go to Europe.  Even though we would have LOVED taking him and giving him the experience, we believe that this is what needs to be done for our family’s sake. It’s going to be super hard and extremely stressful for me to leave my two kiddos behind, but it’s something I need to do! We can’t control every little detail in our children’s lives.  I think the minute we land in Europe I will [hopefully] feel very relieved with a new outlook on life!  Of course, I could NEVER forget my kids, but I CAN forget about controlling every detail of our lives. Life is meant to be explored with friends, with family, with or without kids, and even solo.  Face your fears and just go do it.  You will be thankful that you did!
Xo, Dani